Definition of love by me

When I love, I love harder than anyone else.
When I love, I locked my heart for anyone else except for him.

But then, I always fall for wrong person.

First time in love or more suitable to call as a crush, I can't forget him for 6 years. I can't accept anyone at that time. I only look up him then feeling so stupid after realising the difference between us like "langit and bumi".

Second time in love, I just feel connected with him although I barely know him. But, he got busted as a liar.

Now, it's so hard to love again. To believe again. To put hope and trust again.

Truth to be told, I'm afraid to love.
But I also afraid that I will be forever alone.

There are always someone coming into my life but still, I can't forced to open my heart for them.
Afraid if I give them some hope, then my heart would changed.

I'm sorry for those whom think I just play with their emotions. It's not my intention but I can't help with that.

Glad that some of them has move on and found someone else, while I'm still lost in my own feelings.

Hope that someday there would be someone who can accept me for what I am.